I was able to spend four days in gorgeous Joshua Tree with the boys this week. It really was an eye opening experience. We were unable to take the telescope for blue dot, but I still took landscape shots.
Before this trip, I would not be able to tell you what fear feels like. Fear runs through your veins. You feel it in every muscle and major organ. It surged from my legs into the pit of my stomach. We were on the face of this boulder, crouched down because the wind was so strong, debating on whether or not to continue scrambling up to the top. [Actually, I guess thats only partially true. The boys had already decided to go up, but I was still deciding on what I wanted to do.]
I also would not have been able to tell you what courage feels like. Courage swallows your fear and allows you to stand up.
The difficult part about this is that whole trip it was severely obvious that I was the "weakest" or I guess just least experienced in our group. Maybe a more accurate word would be "cautious"; but either way I usually had to be helped or guided when we were making our way up the boulders.
I feel like through out this trip I was constantly challenged by my own self/strength. This trip challenged me to trust my own strength and ability as opposed to relying on others. It is so crazy how true the phrase, "you can do it" is. I learned that I can do literally anything.